(?) WTF is wrong with me (?)

 22:41

Hi everyone ;/

Tell meone thing... What's wrong with me? 1 hour ago I was outside with my friend and her dog. I heard my bf's motorcycle like sb really  pressed harder on the gas few times and I was angry af. And now tell me ... im fucking jealous or just scared ab him? Maybe I am just excusing myself from being angry , saying im scared that he might hurt himself, but in reality im just jealous that he was with sb or that he was without me.... I called him when i came back home and his mum was angry (i hear in the speaker...) . I was that angry that i started to yelling at him and being jealous that i didnt talked to him all day and now he doesnt have juust one min to talk with me and tell me what happened taht shes angry... I seriously dont fucking know whats goin on with me but im tired. Am I fuvcking sick or wtf? It's sad. Like because of it he said he dont wanna talk with me then... We were also arguening ab that he said sth but in reality he was doin sth different so iwas more angry then earlier. during our call , he was talikng with mum so i said to him to call me when they finish and min after i asked if he finished and he wrote that he wants to change the oil in motor, so i waited a few moments and then i asked once again if he changed it but he sad he's sitting and talking with mum so i got more angry thinking that he lied to me... And then he wrote he doesnt wanna talk anymore and called me 5min later but i didnt answered. Idk wtf am i doing but i cant do anything...... Pls anyone help me i dont wanna be like that . im fucking tired. He was lying all the time to me and now i think alle the time hes hiding sth from me, lying bla bla. Sooooooooooo yeaaaah :C

btw..... today i was with my class on sth like trip (?) we were having BBQ and we were singing bla bal some kind of integration :D it was really cool ♥ Tommorow i have math test but its okay -,- 

Sorry , but i have to go.. I have to take a shower and then read my required reading -,- So bye i guess...

GN ♥,

xblackxqueenxx                 23:06 

                                                                     

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Sunday mood 💀

 23:44

Hi guys!!!

I had stomachache all day -,- Im stressed af 🙉🙉 Tomorrow im going to the school soooo im scared xD I have a test of English of four units and i cant 😂🤭 sooo i will write to u tomorrow beetwen Lessons to tell u how did it go ,Ok? Ok gahaha 

Today i was with my bf all day bc we had a sleepover at my house and in the morning we went to his house and we were sleeping ,watching some YouTube aaaand i was doing my homework 🤗🤗🤗 REALLY EXCITING -,- 

Now i have to say goodbye and learn some worda in english 🥲❤️

Goodnight,

Sweet dreams,

Lov u ✨❤️🤠

xblackxquennxx

Just Saturday ♥

 15:16

Hi ♥

I promise you i won't forget ab time anymore haha . I wanna tell u that today im gonna learn how to drive a car again :D Im so happy ,excited but at the same time, im terrified a bit. How was my week? I can say it wasn't good enough XD BUT , I got a good mark from my chemistry teacher for activity on lesson - "B". I think that nice of her , bc she wouldn't do it if i weren't doin enough ♥ What's more ? hmmmmm

I had quarrel with my bf and it was sth big i guess. We're together since 29.09.19 (day,month,year) - im writing this bc i know that abroad people writes it different .. idk exactly but sth like month ,day,year . Sooooo .... I was trying to say that we're close to each other and i imagine to myself the future with him . Like seriously .... I started going to the new school when I was with him in the relationship. I really hope that im gonna end this school with him too.... But anyways...................... 

Our teacher, who is teaching us English, showed us an offer. We have an opportunity to go on a course of Engilsh . Im stil thinking ab it, bc i really want to learn English , i love this language and everyday i wan to delevop myself. But it's normal that i dont wanna go there alone. I will wait until my friends tell me if theyre going too. 

hahha i looked up on the time and it's 15;31 soooooo im writing it too long i guess hahah

ik what i wanted to say ......... I'm confused , because im in the second class of High School and idk where im gonna be studying .... I always wanted to study cosmetology ,but recently i've been thinking about
biotechnology... It seems too serious for me . I am scared that i won't deal with it. In Cosmetology university u learn for instance how to produce cosmetics, what ingredients it has got in its composition etc. Im keen on doing make-up, doing nails but im not sure ab creating cosmetics..... Actually i wanna try sth new like biotechnology ! It seems to be really interesting and know that it might be too hard for me to learn.... Im scared that everyone would be laughing at me that i wanna go there, being such an stupid person .. It is hard to learn, that's for sure.......... I have only one more year to think ab my future , maybe i will think up sth. idk....  Now i have to go bc its 15:42 and i have to prepare myself bc i was supposed to go with my bf to the village and then drive a car a bit  ♥♥

BYE,

TAKE CARE ,

xqueenxblackxx 

 Hi every one!!!!

Good morning ♥ I just thought about writing in posts the time (hours) , in which im writing. It seems to be good idea and might make your reading more pleasant.  

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Heeey ! I forgot about the hour hahahha but now itd 16:33 im at my boyfriend’S house and im waiting for my tea ;p how ab u? Whats your plans for weekend?

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 Hi once again !

I have one BIG problem. How to show people my blog without actually telling them that i have blog? Like i don't wanna show who i am ... i wanna be incognito hahaha XD I guess...... that we've to wait for visitors :P I had blog a few years ago and visitors was coming here from all over the world. Hahahahaha , i just reminded myself when i was counting each visitor every day. I'm wondering now , how to go viral without showing yourself? This would be my mistery for the next few weeks hahaha. I want to write to you, describe my days, tell my secrets or sth. Idk exactly... So ! Maybe i'll wait for the end of online classes or the end of the day and then i post it :D yup. That's my plan for now ,so bye , see you in the evening ♥

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Hi again Xd its 1:42 am i still awake ,but i wanted to say gn and sweet dreams. Tomorrow is a new perfect day ✨❤️🤗🤠

Monday, Tuesday, Wednesday,Thursday 👅

 I was wondering about recreating my blog since the week had started ... I don't  have many friends or people, who wants to talk with me so i wanna share my life with you ! HERE ! Before we get started , u should probably check some info ab me on the right side of the page :P -------------------> riiight here 

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Okay, so i wrote it yesterday and i don't know why i didn't ended XD As you probably know, one week we have online classes and another week we go to school... Personally, i'm really tired when we have to study at home. When I was in the school week ago i was really happy ! I met my friends and it was fun ;p 

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I'm really sorry ,but idk XD Learning online is the worst thing ever. Since this week had started i'm trying to wake up at 6am or 7:30am but i can't. I have strange dreams, which i totally don't understand. Recently, my brain is a trash XD I feel not good enough for everyone. Everyday i am thinking about the next day , i have some kind of plan and then i wake up and i feel tired and useless ... So i hope that this blog might help me and i would be a better person without everyday issues. I guess that for today that's it. But i have one request.... Please don't expect me to post regularly XD I am not like this hhaha . When i have sth on my mind i just write so yup.... 

Bye ,

Have a nice day ♥

xblackxqueenxx 👅